Sick of miss

Initially, I think that I am not a girl who sticky at home

Maybe due to I had two jobs almost one & half year

Every time while I am at home only for dinner, bath & sleep

SOMETIMES I do to hang out with friends til lately 

 sometimes I bet they are hate me cuz of my numerous reject on dating HAHA 

Anyhow, I HATE CONFLICT! Make me feeling uncomfortable

 I spent most of my time on WORKS, feel sad of my life just working & earning money previously =(  

I though I won't miss home

However...

Forth of the night I was LEAVE from my home

I starting miss the smell of my home

I miss my drawer 

I miss my home's air-con

I miss home's vehicle

I miss home's toilet

I miss home's refrigerator 

I miss home's big mirror

LOLOLOL

I stopped my both job a couple of week ago before I came to here

It was really make me can't breath well to prepare all the stuff at ten days, seriously I get mad

I spent my time wisely with lovely sister, little bro and friends

I feel sister's love, I feel friend's caring & protection

and my heart felt touched ♥ & warm =')

One of my friends is going to leave Kuantan so soon
Guess we will have a long period not going to meet together after this
But I having the strong instinct we will have the chance to meet again 

Special Thanks here she was so caring, teaching me lots of thing and she is so humorous

At this moment ...

I am worrying my someone but I couldn't do anything right now

Still, I miss my form six gang 

I miss my bestie so muchieee

I miss my two cutie nephews

I miss doggie Jacqueline, I failed to visit her, promised will go to meet her when home  

I miss my both job even I felt exhausted sometimes but I did to enjoy & l♥ve it

This is my full timer job's environment

You won't feel stressful working there because of the modern-style office

Met many seniority at office, they willing to share their life's experiences, taught me and guild me

Feel thankful ~

Typically people left resignation letter to boss

But I sent a thank you message to my prettier boss through Whatsapp:-

Dear ms.xxx, sincere to say thank you for giving a chance works at ur agency

This is my pleasure to meet a nice boss like you

And thank you for free a INC ticket, I had gained an best experience

Much thanks gave me time on learning at insurance field!

Also sorry for I did mistakes or couldn't did well on my duty

Great to meet you and keep in touch

The best job ever I think I won't have in future

A good boss like her 

I always think that I am an independent girl but seems like I am not actually

Giving people a feel like I need of protection 

Making people worry about me

Am I not strong enough? =(

Back to zero

Time fly so fast and it is approach June after more two days

Neglected my blog again about two months plus

Working schedule is pack and I am busy with preparing new life

Just a short update here to announce that I choose to pursuit my studies for another life's stage

Anyhow I still insist to become a degree holder just hesitating either full timer or part timer 

Had a working experience almost one and the half year

Ever since choose to back study life, I already alert everything will be start from zero

I won't be give up and this time is me myself to create a chance for my own

Thurs,

 no ones will feel guilty if I really did a wrong decision

Much things I would like to sharing here

Stay tuned new update sooner

Good Night ♥

Including all

That is some reason why I choose to be "under drawer"...

I am so frighten people will ask me again and again why my choice haven't proceed

I have to repeat and repeat a thousand times about my answer

Some of them may feel ridiculous on your choice if you unable to achieve it at last

Refer to the previous article, I don't exactly know what is my actual decision

I just know I HAVE TO LEAVE!

Making decision just need a moment

Will announce once I have a right decision to heal forward

Sometimes, I do not wish to be happiest because there might be something sad happens afterward

Sometimes, I feel alone and emo when I do not know how to settle a problem with rational and stand steady

Sometimes, I couldn't manage to handle stressful in my life and I did to tear 

Yea, I am a weaker as far as you know

I don't ever know how other peoples think about my life

I guess they would assume I create an imagination problem in my life because of I always in negative minds

Anyhow, problem is a fact that we couldn't refuse to solve it except YOU ESCAPE!

Nothing to say about bad things that occurred 

As my colleague says, think POSITIVELY !

However, I am much appreciated LIFE taught me all lesson even I prefer it can be simple and peaceful

When I am really down, there must be someone always at my back encourage me to STAY STRONG!

I thanks GOD that arranged them in my life who never tries to give up on me

But God, can you guide me to a bright future? hehex...

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I decided not going to wear enlarge iris contact lenses anymore even it is looks so nice

I prefer back to normal---transparent contact lenses more moisture

Moreover my P/T job is pretty long hours

There must a huge different in between it because my iris really small

Please don't judge me about that HAHAHA

Last pic with enlarge iris con

"I couldn't be natural pretty cute, I am not fashionable but I am still a girl wishes to have a pretty look"

Why I mentioned it due to my eldest sister nagged me I am outdated AGAIN!

She said if I don't try to dress up myself at this age when I only willing to do that

 I replied Kuantan people mostly wear casual look what for I have to dress up myself!

Some more, I wanna save money and she shoot me back that's not an excuse T.T

The worse I heard she said my hair is super ugly! *OMG

 That's a point why I dislike go to saloon

I was been moody for so long about my hair the day after I cut

No worth to talk about it, just making me more sadder and I don't want to cut it again

I just want my hair grow faster til a length that I can tied up my hair

I bet there is a country that you wondering to travel

For me, I wish to go either Australia or England as my 1st time trip to oversea

I like the environment with western-style..ermmmm I don't know how to mention it,forget about it

I am not a shopaholic so "shopping heaven" place temporarily not in my listing

So what's your? ;)